If only my wife knew the reason I've been finding it so difficult to touch her for the past 6 years

"If only my wife knew the reason I've been finding it so difficult to touch her for the past 6 years

I look at my wife in bed & i feel like I'm lying next to my fellow man who has got bathroom slippers on his chest & zebras on his constipated belly. I ask myself every night 'where is that beautiful woman that i fell in love with & married 18 years ago? but i don't seem to find answers. Life really has a way of surprising us.

Who would have thought after 18 years of marriage I'd find myself drawn to other w""men? I wish i wasn't doing this but I can't help myself.  At age 54, I still find myself desiring younger & more attractive women coz the components that made the one i have at home beautiful have been rusted & outdated over time after giving birth to 5 children.

How i wish it wasn't so. I just wish women could remain forever youthful & beautiful, even after bearing children. Now, truly, i just realized that every male is being born with that virus of ch-t!ng. We're all the same, i guess, our women just have to endure, embrace & accept us this way"